Saturday, April 25, 2009

Re: Emotions

So, apparently, part of being a church planter means that there are going to be UNBELIEVABLE emotional ups and downs.  One morning, I wake up fully confident that Cynergy Church is going to take Holly Springs by storm, that we are going to start a revolution that will multiply across the world as God provides.  The next morning,  I wake up pretty sure that I've done the most stupid thing in the world and we are going to fail, Tracy and I will be poor forever and I'm ready to give up.

I am an emotional guy, probably a little more than most guys, and I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve just a little bit.  But, the one thing that has remained constant through my emotional ups and downs is the clarity of the calling that God placed on my life to be a part of a church plant that's going to change a town, city, region, state and world.  

So, I'm not quitting, right now.  I knew this wasn't going to be easy.  I'm not sure I was prepared for it to be this hard, but I know that God is going to take care of us.  He's going to provide us with the things we need, he's going to honor our efforts and he's going to accomplish what He has set out to accomplish, with or without us.  

Truth is, I'd rather be on mission for God and be on an emotional roller coaster than to have a lots of money and worldly success but have nothing real to live for.  

Guess that's it for today.

I'm done.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Re: Worried

So, I'm worried.  Here's the deal, I like kids, just not that much.  For the most part, kids tend to get on my nerves.  I don't think this is all that unusual, but there are 2 major problems.  First, Tracy is 4 1/ 2 months pregnant with our first child, who at this point is a boy named Wyatt Grady.  Second, Tracy and I are leading "CynergyKIDS" at Cynergy Church every Sunday night at 6:00pm.  

Truth is, I really do enjoy being around children and I enjoy getting to tell them about the difference that Jesus has made in my life.  I probably enjoy teaching teenagers more, but kids are fun, too.  But, I guess one of my major concerns is that it seems like so few parents are investing real time into raising their children.  They simply give them what keeps them happy and/or quiet and/or occupied.  

Tracy and I sense a strong burdening (is that a real word?) from the Lord to be about raising Godly kids who are secure in who they are, who are respectful of adults and WHO WE ENJOY SPENDING TIME WITH!!  I don't think most parents enjoy spending time with their kids.  

Anyone who reads this (which I know there's only like 2 people, one of them is me), anyways, anyone who reads this and has kids is probably thinking that I'm fooling myself and it will never happen like that.  You're probably thinking, "you just wait, it will change".   Yeah, I've heard it.  But, I've seen families (maybe literally 1 or 2), but I've seen them, who enjoy being together, who don't get wrapped up in dating, where kids don't hate their parents, where parents enjoy time with kids, where Jesus is the center of the family.   I wanna be that.

I'm excited about being a dad, I really am!  I'm excited about raising a son, too.  I can't wait to teach him about the most beautiful woman in the world (whom he will know as Mom, or Mama). I can't wait to sit him down one day and teach him about being a man, to see him taking care of his younger brother(s) and/or sister(s) if the Lord gives us that.  I can't wait to tell him about how Tracy (aka Mom) is way more important to me than him, but outside of Jesus and Mom, nothing else in the world comes even close.  I can't wait to see him take his first step, say his first word, make an eternal commitment to Jesus, do crazy stuff for the kingdom and be an awesome big brother.  And, hopefully, he'll be left handed, just because that's cool.

Geez, this is enough.  I'm freakin' pumped!! Cynergy went well again tonight!  I'm flippin' pumped about what God is going to do!!

I'm done.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

WOW!!

The last few weeks have been a blur and we've already had 2 Sunday evening services with Cynergy and we're just a few short days from our 3rd.  

And, all I can say is WOW!! 

Here's the thing, we thought we knew exactly how to do everything!
We didn't.

We thought tons of people would show up and we'd have a mega-church by the 3rd week.  
We won't.

We got this idea that all we had to do was just say we would do things with excellence and everything else would fall in to place.
Didn't happen.

So, I'm ready to quit, right? Umm, heck no!!!

This is the most amazing thing I've ever been able to be a part of.

I am learning that if I want something to happen, I need to make sure it happens.

I am learning that when I say that the core team is here to be the "staff" for Pastor Perry, we need to be the one who hold him up.  When I say that, we really have to do that.  Even within the first few weeks, it's easy for the pastor to get everything thrown at him, we gotta have his back, FO REAL!!

I'm learning that part of doing something for the kingdom of God means that there is going to be a personal investment, there is going to be a personal cost.  If it costs nothing, it's not worth it.  

On top of all that, Tracy and I found out we are having a boy.  Wyatt Grady.  In the midst of all this, WOW!!  God is bringing about 2 of the biggest changes in my life all at the same time!  Wow!!  I want to talk more about fathering a son, hopefully next time. 

WOW!!!!

I'm done.


Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Re: Cynergy Church

The time is almost here!! We have been praying and planning for this moment for what seems like two years now!  

And, it's getting here faster than we ever imagined.  This Sunday night, we will be having our first public service for Cynergy Church at the Holly Springs School of Dance, located at 136 Oakhall Drive in Holly Springs, NC - at 6:00pm!!  The owner of the studio has been incredibly generous to allow us to use the facilities there for our gathering.

I am so incredibly excited to see how God is going to use Perry and the team from Cynergy to make a crazy big impact on the Holly Springs area.  I really do believe that God is setting each step in front of us.  And, in his timing, he waits just long enough so that we really have to depend on him, not on ourselves.  I have been just blown away by the way that the Lord has provided over the last few weeks and how He has orchestrated each step before we were ever sure how or when we might take that step.

Now, we will turn our attention to putting all of these thoughts and ideas to action.  We are going to hold a church service.  We are going to share with the community what has been in our hearts for an exceedingly long time.  

Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to serve you!!  

I can't wait to see what He's going to do with Cynergy!

I'm done!